mood: 
contemplative
contemplativemusic: a man of no importance-our father
I think it good that I keep my words here still. Maybe not many here read Such things. I know that they do not. I want to remember anyway what I Learned in Dol Amroth.
My cousin would not be so happy if he knew. He says to pretend I was dead and forget Dol Amroth. If I could for him, I'd do that. I can't. eomer does not need to know I think of them and it a lot. I miss them like I was missing Eomer when I was not in the Mark.
I think maybe i am confused.
But Eomer does want me to stay. That is why he was so angry about it. we are not fighting anymore and it makes my heart happy. So does seeing and riding Aefre. She is not dead as Eomer told me when he was so upset. Mordor did not take her when I was gone. I worried for her then.
I need to be happy. Not miss what is NOt there. But it does not feel like home now. I was sick. From the water is what the healer said because I was gone so long. even That is changed to me noW.
Where do I belong where should I go?
I don't know now.